5 Weeks & 6 Days

Today, I am 5 weeks 6 days pregnant. It’s still so strange to say, to type, to think…

Tonight I get to give myself my progesterone shot. Yay… But at least I know what I’m doing now. As far as symptoms, my nausea is now hit and miss and I am stocked up (as of today) on nausea lozenges. I’m still constantly exhausted and pregnancy brain is at 100%. I have gas really bad at night, which I found out that progesterone makes you gassy, so that totally makes sense. My boobs are already getting bigger. My areoles are dry and darkening. I had to get some nipple balm it was so bad. Nips are constantly erect still. So, that’s about it. My last day before summer is Friday, so I’m just trying to relax and count down the days.

You want something for so long. You work for something for so long that is completely out of your hands. You dream about the moment for so long. Now that its here, it is hard to process and accept as truth. I’ve been a nervous wreck about pregnancy. If I’m not having symptoms at a specific moment, I am freaking out. I’m terrified of something happening. I am trying to be grateful and calm my thoughts, but it is very difficult. I have some diagnoses that dictate my thoughts and my ability to control them. That being said, yesterday, I panic bought pregnancy tests. I searched for a while for some “one day delivery” ones on Amazon and did the “BUY NOW” option, which only requires a slide. They came in today, and I took both of the ones in the box.

Yep, still pregnant! I feel like an idiot now, but yesterday I was freaking out. We have our scan next Tuesday, so 7 more sleeps! I hope that when we see our sweet baby on the screen and hear the heartbeat, my panic and anxiety will subside. 🤞🏼

I need to try to blog earlier in the day, because my brain is toast.